(Nadine Gordimer – 1991)
Someone
has written to ask me to contribute to an anthology of stories for children. I
reply that I don’t write children’s stories; and he writes back that at a
recent congress/book fair/ seminar a certain novelist said every writer ought
to write at least one story for children. I think of sending a postcard saying
I don’t accept that i ‘ought’ to write anything.
And then last night I woke up – or
rather was wakened without knowing what had roused me.
A voice in the echo-chamber of the
subconcious?
A sound.
A creaking of the kind made by the
weight carried by one foot after another along a wooden floor. I listened. I
felt the apertures of my ears distend with concentration. Again: the creaking.
I was waiting for it; waiting to hear if it indicated that feet were moving
from room to room, coming up the passage–to my door. I have no burglar bars, no
gun under the pillow, but I have the same fears as people who do burglar bars,
no gun under the pillow, but I have the same fears as people who do take these
precautions, and my windowpanes are thin as rime, could shatter like a
wineglass. A woman was murdered (how do they put it) in broad daylight in a
house two blocks away, last year, and the fierce dogs who guarded an old
widower and his collection of antique clocks were strangled before he was
knifed by casual labourer he had dismissed without pay.
I was staring at the door, making it
out in my mind rather than seeing it, in a dark. I lay quite still--a victim already-- but the arrhythmia of my heart was fleeing, knocking this
way and that against its body-cage. How finely tuned the senses are, just out
of rest, sleep! I could never listen intently as that the distractions of the
day; I was reading every faintest sound, identifying and classifying its
possible threat.
But I learned that I was to be
neither threatened nor spared. There was no human weight pressing on the
boards, the creaking was a buckling, an epicenter of stress. I was in it. The
house that surrounds me while I sleep is built on undermined ground; far beneath
my bed, the floor, the house’s foundations, the stages and passages of gold
mines have hollowed the rock, and when some face trembles, detaches and falls,
three thousand feet below, the whole shifts slightly, bringing uneasy strain to
the balance and counterbalance of brick, cement, wood and glass that hold it as
a structure around me. The misbeats of my heart tailed off like the last
muffled flourishes on one of the wooden xylophones made by the Chopi and Tsonga
migrant miners who might have been down there, under me in the earth at the
moment. The stope where the fall was could have been disused, dripping water
from its ruptured veins; or men might now be interred there in the most
profound of tombs.
I couldn’t find a position in which
my mind would let go of my body--
release me to sleep again. So I began to tell myself a story, a bedtime
story. In a house, a suburb, in a city, there were a man and his wife who loved each other very much and were living happily ever after. They had a little boy, and they loved him very much. They had a cat and a dog that the little boy loved very much. They had a car and a caravan trailer for holidays, and a swimming-pool which was fence so that the little boy and his playmates would not fall in and drown. They had a housemaid who was absolutely trustworthy and an itinerant gardener who was highly recommended by the neighbours. For when they began to live happily ever after they were warned, by that wise old witch, the husband’s mother, not to take on anyone off the street. They were inscribed in a medical benefit society, their pet dog was licensed, they were insured against fire, flood damage and theft, and subscribed to the local Neighbourhood Watch, which supplied them with a plaque for their gates lettered YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED over the silhouette of a would-be intruder. He was masked; it could not be said if be said if he was black or white, and therefore proved the property owner was no racist.
It is not possible to insure the
house, the swimming pool or the car against riot damage. There were riots, but
these were outside the city, where people of another colour were quartered. These
people were not allowed into the suburb except as reliable housemaids and
gardeners, so there was nothing to fear, the husband told the wife. Yet she was
afraid that some day such people might come up the street and tear off the
plaque YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED and opens the gates and stream in . . . Nonsense my
dear, said the husband, there are police and soldiers and tear-gas and guns to
keep them away. But to please her¾for he loved her very much and buses were being burned,
cars stoned, and schoolchildren shot by the police in those quarters out of
sight and hearing of the suburb¾he had electronically-controlled gates fitted. Anyone who pulled off the
sign YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED and tried to open the gates would have to announce
his intentions by pressing a button and speaking into a receiver relayed to the
house. The little boy was fascinated by the device and used it as a walkie-talkie in cops and robbers play with his small
friends.
The riot were suppressed, but there
were many burglaries in the suburb and somebody’s trusted housemaid was tied up
and shut in a cupboard by thieves while she was in charge of her employers’
house. The trusted housemaid of the man and wife and little boy was so upset by
this misfortune befalling a friend left, as herself often was, with
responsibility for the possessions of the man and his wife and little boy that
she implored her employers to have burglar bars attached o the doors and
windows of the house, and an alarm system installed. The wife said, She is
right, let us take heed to her advice. So from every window and door in the
house where they were living happily ever after they now saw the trees and sky
through bars, and when the little boy’s pet tried to climb in by the fanlight
to keep him company in his little bed at night, as it costumarily had done, it
set off the alarm keening through the house.
The alarm was often answered--it seemed--by other burglar alarms, in other houses, that had been triggered by pet
cats or nibbling mice. The alarms called to one another across the gardens in
shrills and bleats and wails that everyone soon became accustomed to, so that
the din roused the inhabitants of the suburb no more than the croak of frogs
and musical grating of cicadas’ legs. Under cover of the electronic harpies’
discourse intruders sawed the iron bars and broke into homes, taking away hi-fi
equipment, television sets, cassette players, cameras and radios, jewellery and
clothing, and sometimes were hungry enough to devour everything in the
refrigerator or paused audaciously to drink the whisky in the cabinets or patio
bars. Insurance companies paid no compensation for single malt, a loss made
keener by the property owner’s knowledge that the thieves wouldn’t even have
been able to appreciate what it was they were drinking.
Then the time came when many of the
people who were not trusted housemaid and gardeners hung about the suburb
because they were unemployed. Some importuned for a job: wedding or painting a
roof; anything, baas, madam. But the man and his wife remembered the warning
about taking on anyone off the street. Some drank liqour and fouled the street
with discarded bottles. Some begged, waiting for the man and his wife to drive
the car out of the electronically-operated gates. They sat about with their
feet in the gutters, under the jacaranda trees that made a green tunnel of the
street--for it was a
beautiful suburb, spoilt only by their presence--and sometimes they fell asleep lying right before the
gates in the midday sun. The wife could never see anyone go hungry. She sent
the trusted housemaid out with bread and tea, but the trusted housemaid said
these were loafers and tsotsis, who would come and tie her up and shut her in a
cupboard. The husband said, She’s right. Take heed of her advice. You only
encourage them with your bread and tea. They are looking for their chance. . .
And he brought the little boy’s tricycle from the garden into the house every
night, because if the house was surely secure, once locked and with the alarm
set, someone might still be able to climb over the wall or the
electronically-closed gates into the garden.
You are right, said the wife, then
the wall should be higher. And the wise old witch, the husband’s mother, paid
for the extra bricks as her Christmas present to her son and his wife¾the little boy got a Space Man outfit and a book of fairy
tales.
But every week there were more
reports of intrusion: in broad daylight and the dead of night, in the early hours
of the morning, and even in the lovely summer twilight--a certain family was at dinner while the bedrooms were
being ransacked upstairs. The man and his wife, talking of the latest armed
robbery in the suburb, were distracted by the sight of the little boy’s pet cat
effortlessly arriving over the seven foot wall, descending first with a rapid
bracing of extended forepaws down on the sheer vertical surface, and then a
graceful launch, landing with swishing tail within the property. The
whitewashed wall was marked with the cat’s comings and goings; and on the
street side of the wall there were larger red-earth smudges that could have
been made by the kind of broken running shoes, seen on the feet of unemployed
loiterers, that had no innocent destination.
When the man and his wife and little
boy took the pet dog for its walk round the neighbourhood streets they no
longer paused to admire this show of roses or that perfect lawn; these were
hidden behind an array of different varieties of security fences, walls and
devices. The man, wife, little boy and dog passed a remarkable choice: there
was the low cost option of pieces of
broken glass embedded in cement along the top of the walls, there were iron
grilles ending in lance-points, there were attempts at reconciling the
aesthetics of prison architechture with the Spanish Villa style (spikes painted
pink) and with the plaster urns of neoclassical facades (twelve-inch pikes
finned like zigzags of lightning and painted pure white). Some walls had a
small board affixed, giving the name and telephone number of the firm
responsible for the instalation of the devices. While the little boy and the
dog pet raced ahead, the husband and wife found thenselves comparing the
possible effectiveness of each style against its appearance; and after several
weeks when they paused before this barricade or that without needing to speak,
both came out with the conclusion that only one was worth considering. It was
the ugliest but the most honest in its suggestion of the pure concentration-camp
style, no frills, all evident efficacy. Placed the length of walls, it
consisted of a continuous coil of stiff and shining metal serrated into jagged
blades, so that there would no way of climbing over it and no way through its
tunnel without getting entangled in its fangs. There would be no way out, only
a struggle getting bloodier and bloodier, a deeper and sharper hooking and
tearing of flesh. The wife shuddered to look at it. You’re right, said the
husband, anyone would think twice . . . And they took heed of advice on a small
board fixed to the wall: Consult DRAGON’S TEETH The People for Total Security.
Next day a gang of workmen came and
stretched the razor-bladed coils all round the walls of the house where the
husband and wife and little boy and pet dog and cat were living happily ever
after. The sunlight flashed and slashed, off the serrations, the cornice of
razor thorns encircled the home, shining. The husband said, Never mind. It will
weather. The wife said, You’re wrong. They guarantee it’s rust-proof. And she
waited until the little boy had run off to play before she said, I hope the cat
will take heed . . . The husband said, Don’t worry, my dear, cats always look
before they leap. And it was true that from that day on the cat slept in the
little boy’s bed and kept to the garden, never risking a try at breaching
security.
One evening, the mother read the
little boy to sleep with a fairy story from the book the wise old witch had
given him at Christmas. Next day he pretended to be the Prince who braves the
terrible thicket of thorns to enter the palace and kiss the Sleeping Beauty
back to life: he draggeda ladder to the
wall, the shining coiled tunnel was just wide enough for his little body to
creep in, and with the first fixing of its razor-teeth in his knees and hands
andhead he screamed and struggled deeper into its tangle. The trusted housemaid
and the itinerant gardener, whose ‘day’ it was, came running, the first to see
abd to scream with him, and the itinerant gardener tore his hands trying to get
the little boy. Then the man and his wife burst wildly into the garden and for
some reason (the cat, probably) the alarm set up wailing against the screams
while the bleeding mass of the little boy was hacked out of the security coil
with saws, wire-cutters, choppers, and they carried it--the man, the wife, the hysterical trusted housemaid and
the weeping gardener--into the house.
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